The end is in sight....

So, here I am, less than 20 hours to go on the fast. It has been a journey. I am not sure what I learned, but I think I know more about myself and more about the character of God. He wants me to finish strong, for me, not for Him. He wants me to have perseverance and be mindful of what I eat, for my best interests. I spent a fair amount of time screaming, "Who am I doing this for, You or me?" I still get don't get that, but as someone said to be when I asked, "yes". So I imagine that this is not the end, but a segue into the next level of Rosa.

A few weeks ago, I did a 5K for the 40th anniversary of Lake Red Rock. It was a beautiful morning, a bit of a breeze and a little misty to cool us off. The route was partly trails and bridges, very level, it was a nice experience. But the route needed to repeat itself to get the full mileage in and where it repeated and ended was a huge, straight up hill. Being tired, a bit muddy, and ready to be done, it was miserable. Especially knowing I had to do it again. And when you get to the middle of the hill and your body says "NO", what are you going to do, you can't stop, you can't turn around, you just have to climb the stupid hill. But once you get up the hill, you think, "That wasn't so bad...." I have a feeling that this fast will be similar to the 5K, there was no turning back, quitting doesn't solve anything, and when it is over, I will think, "That wasn't so bad...." I am a better person for having persevered and I did it for me and Him. Probably more for me. He loves me regardless of me.

I'll see you all at the potluck!!

Rosa